The Fire
Salsa Guru was the first person I spoke to this morning. I would normally wait till I’ve had my coffee before I even think about salsa, and I thought I could get him off with the momentary “can’t currently have relationships with non-Verizon users between the hours of 7:00 am and 9:00 pm Monday – Friday” state of my cell phone bill, but Salsa Guru is a Verizon carrier (hey, can I get some free minutes for this plug?).
Somehow the conversation got around to the “level” of my salsa. I wasn’t thinking about how to get the next “level” in my salsa career (I never knew there were levels to dancing, never knew I wanted to attain them, nor that I would be pursuing any of this at age 35…and I still don’t know if I am). But I was talking to Salsa Guru without coffee, and last night we were both at the same tiny underground club with about ten other people till 1:00 am (did I mention that I’m unemployed and single?) and, like him or not, he is Salsa Guru…offering salsa instruction is like breathing.
“Don’t smile when you dance.” (He’s told me this before. The classic salsera is supposed to own her power with stoic nonchalance).
“What if I’m happy?”
“Look as if you’re in the military for now, and later you can add some ‘flavor’.” (‘Flavor’ = ‘personality’).
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“It’s easier to teach someone when they’re under 25,” he said.
“True. But if it’s something I want to learn, I don’t see why I can’t.”
“But it’s just not as easy. You have to have the fire.”
“You’re saying that I have no fire?”
“No. But you have to want it more than anything.”
I don’t know if it’s “Fire” so much as “parents who take care of all my shit” that really makes up the difference between me now and at age 20. At age 20, I didn’t think about things like health insurance, rent/mortgage (haha…I still don’t have a mortgage), IRA’s, cell minutes, tune-ups, tax receipts, cable bills, organic vegetables, dirty dishes, etc. The logistics of survival take up so much space in my head, I have to flee to Latte Land to escape (though, I can do my laundry there if I so choose).
“Just practice a little everyday.”
Like I don’t already. I have the damn Fire, fucking Salsa Guru. It just gets put out every now and then.
Just for today, I can make sure The Fire doesn’t get put out.
