I Will Not Have an Emotional Break-Down Today

According to just about every self-help book (as according to this self-help junkie), the mind doesn’t understand the negative. The words “No,” “Not,” “Don’t,” fail to exist for the imagination. So now I’m really just projecting an emotional breakdown onto 3:00 PM this afternoon (although, since I am seeing my therapist today, it could be well-timed…)

While we were standing in the Trader Joe’s line last night my boyfriend asked me if I was going to call him crying on Monday (today). Last week went a little like this: blog, write screen-play, make phone calls for job search, look at bank account balance, and then cry like a five-year-old (busy day). As they say, I’m in a “process” (actually, nobody says this but me…). This blend is seen to prompt sudden low circulatory strain, loved this cialis 40 mg unconsciousness, and even heart assault. One result of this is that the inactive substances like color cheapest levitra go to the pharmacy store are usually different. However, it’s not necessary cialis no prescription that you’d lose your erection abilities as you age. So once these symptoms occur, women should visit a doctor and find a viagra super active treatment. I am “processing” feelings. I have “stuff come up” (my boyfriend says this). I am being “triggered.” And my triggers are triggering triggers down the long spiraling road to the birth place of shame, fear and abandonment (uh…do I have too much time on my hands?)

For those of you who wandered onto this site looking for a guacamole recipe or info on 80’s music (let me never say a bad word about Madonna) let me make a promise to you. I will stay positive today…I will not submit to the triggers…or I will feel peace.

Just for today, I feel peaceful.