I Felt Really Depressed Today
Whenever I feel depressed the following lyrics run through my head like a tape. The following is the most poetic description of depression (or my experience of it) that I have ever read. They are from the song “After All” by Dar Williams.
“Well the whole truth
Is like the story of a wave unfurled
But I held the evil of the world
So I stopped the tide
Froze it up from inside
And it felt like a winter machine
That you go through and then
You catch your breath and winter starts again
And everyone else is spring bound
And when I chose to live
There was no joy – it’s just a line I crossed
It wasn’t worth the pain my death would cost
So I was not lost or found.”
It gets very uplifting later, but today I wasn’t thinking about that part (it would have made me puke). I was too lost in a “winter machine” of my own creation, an empty vacuous place where I was neither “lost nor found” (can you tell I was an English major? this is exactly how I wrote papers, extracting specific phrases and words…god, I miss college…). Coach: Jamie Siddons Ireland World Cup squad: William Porterfield (capt), Trent Johnston, Alex Cusack, Andre Botha, Kevin O’Brien, Niall O’Brien (wk), Nigel Jones, Ed Joyce, viagra canada sales John Mooney, Paul Stirling, Gary Wilson (wk), George Dockrell, Boyd Rankin, Albert van der Merwe, Andrew White. Treatment of recurrent thrush with cialis viagra sale traditional medicines gives immediate relief but in time the symptoms return. Take a break- In spite of making many efforts; if you find viagra sildenafil 100mg that the relationship is not working anymore, it is better taking some time and giving more attention to the child will help reduce the anxiety. Tadalafil is currently available in the form of Shilajit cheap viagra levitra Gold capsules worldwide, the rare herbal concoction is an affordable elixir for health. I felt about as vibrant as the strip mall where I wandered around during my lunch break in an effort to shake myself out of my funk (big mistake). There’s nothing like the site of Panda, Rubio’s, and Baja to validate the sense of soulessness in America. (Warning: pretentious English major-like prose to follow…)I had no choice but to float through the motions, alive in the most pedestrian way (are you still with me?), a fellow zombie who inhabits The Gap and consumes the blood of the earth in the form of Calvin Klein underwear and cases of bottled water (it was so freakin’ hot today that fear of global warming temporarily got my blood flowing).
After a presciption of yoga, therapy, and, conversation with friend, I felt better.
Just for today, I can accept depression.