Ah, Yes…It’s Christmas…
There’s nothing like Christmas to drive home the fact that my childless state is impeding the ability of my family to appropriately enjoy this holiday. Who wants to watch a 34-year-old woman open her stocking? It’s a silent accusation (my mom doesn’t want to “seem” to be putting pressure on me), which is why it feels like it’s screaming behind every child we meet, every toy at the stores, every cheerful holiday adornment…”where are MY grandchildren!”
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God, I’m starting to bore myself.
Just for today, I can indulge myself on the holidays.